Obsessed With Youtubers.

Lately, i discovered that i have a disease, they call it in the new world: you tubers obsession,I'm obsessed with these people that face the camera, do things, or say things, and you know what? I'm not even sorry. If you don't know what a youtuber is, patricks( eh, get it, because you live under a rock.)a youtuber is a person who sits in front of a camera, at home or anywhere else, filming himself, alone or with other people doing things or talking about things, that vary from one youtuber to the other, so they basically put their selves out there for the whole world to see. Which is the bravest thing you can do, in today's world, that is full of criticism and opinionated individuals. As a human being, i can understand the pressure that these fellow humans are under, i mean do you imagine putting yourself out there for the whole world to judge you? to put a video on the Internet-which we all know is scary place sometimes- and just wait there, and read all types of things that people may say about you, and believe me, I've read some of those things and they're very offensive, and hurt like hell, some of them are creepy, and some of them are cringe worthy to say the least. It's not only about the scrutiny of being in the public eye, it's also the stress of coming up with fresh ideas to put on your channel, something that hasn't been done before, which is also hard, all the original ideas are taken, you name it, it has been done before, or at least that's what we thought, until your favourite youtuber uploads a video under the title "inappropriate unicycling" or "how to parent your dog" and you think "what? how are they doing this? now I've seen it all" until their next video and your mind is blown all over again. And these people are like really talented,they are good at what they do, whether it be beauty gurus, comedians, life hackers, inspirational talkers, you name it, they are good at it, and they make it look so fucking easy, but it's really not. Ive tried it and it is hard, and i applaud them for that. But one thing may skip the mind of the masses is that these are normal human beings, yes they may be gorgeous, yes they are hot, yes they are talented, but they're just like us, they have lives that they want to keep private too, even when they expose a huge portion of it on you tube, they still want privacy, which in the end they may not have, and that is sad, I think that what we need to remember here is that youtubers are normal human beings with abnormal jobs, jobs that didn't exist up to 20 years ago, their privacy and life control is important, they need to feel loved and appreciated, but not to the point of smothering them, because they really do put a smile on my face and I'm sure they do to you too, if you follow them of course. and if you don't, I advise you to, because they can change your life in ways you've never imagined, and I think that's an amazing thing that they do, change people's lives from afar, just by being themselves. please follow this blog, because i know you're cool!

The comeback!

I know, i've been gone for like ages and ages on end and i want to say to whom ever that is reading this: i am sorry.
The self control and discipline levels that  have are the same of a child in willy wonka's chocolate factory, basicaly none, and i feel bad for that, but i had like a wake up call a few days ago, i won't be young forever, there is no guarantee that i will live until tomorrow, there is only today, and today is what i will work with.
In this project that i am starting to better myself and my life i am starting with this blog, i've deserted it and now i feel like a horrible person, but this will be my comeback for the world of blogging.
I am not a perfect person, hell, i am the farthest thing away from perfect, but i will make this promise, to you all and to myself that every week, nomatter what my circumstances are, there WILL be a post every week, this is my resolution.
please follow this blog :) because you're cool!

SKO!

Well, i know i have been gone for like an extensive amount of time but i had some pretty good diabolic straight out of hell reason: architecture. i can't spare a moment to sit down and write a blog post, but i do now; and today's post is about that series i promised of life skills and this post's life skill is amazing, it's called SARCASM.
Now you all should know that i am a huge fan of sarcasm, because nowadays people are seriously lacking common sense and sarcasm is a great way to respond to that. i have searched for a proper definition for the word sarcasm and found a lot, but the best one i found is: sarcasm is the way to insult idiots without them realising it. it's accurate definition, for i feel that there is too much stupidity in the world and if you can't hit a stupid person in the face because it would be wrong you might as well retaliate with a sharp sarcastic response that will make them shut up and make you feel a lot better inside
to be honest , i am an overly sarcastic person; i use sarcasm in my everyday life just like i use air or water; i feel it is a necessary for a sane mind because the overpower of stupidity makes me want to punch people in the face with a coconut but since we don't always carry a coconut around with us (which we should because  it would be cool) sarcasm is the greatest way to feel a bit better and stop the anger building in your insides; i know we all had that feeling when someone says something extremely stupid that you just can't shut up and you must say something or else you will risk your mental health and implode(if you never had that feeling, i have bad news for you, you are the one who always says stupid things; and you should stop seriously: everyone) so sarcasm is actually a healthy life skill that prevents injuries with a coconut to the face, strokes, blood clots, high blood sugar, and a lot of the other things so exercise it regularly. sorry for the rant but it had to be said.
ANGEL...

Questions.

There is one thing sure about this life and it is that it is not sure, you can never know what will happen next, one minute you are happy and enjoying a great song, the next you get a call that your best friend is sick and in bed, and while you get there you find them already feeling better, that is life: nothing about it is stable or certain to stay there. even us as human beings, we are not sure that we are going to stay for long, we hope to, we make plans, we work on them and try to accomplish them, and we pray every day for the best, but the truth is that we might sleep but never wake up, or get out of the house and never come back, or we might come inside the doctors and never leave; well not on our feet anyway, and i was thinking today: what have i done with my life? what is exciting about my life? what have i accomplished so far? and all i can think of is studying. i have literally done nothing with my life, except for studying all the time, I've never travelled; I've never been to a wedding, I've never fallen in love, I've never had my heart broken, I've never had a major fight in my life, I'm always so good to people that nobody wants to fight with me, don't get me wrong i think that i have a great life, but i want more, isn't that like the human nature,isn't that what makes us the beings that we are; our constant longing for something that even us don't know.
What if i die tomorrow? will i be happy because I've done everything i wanted? no, i won't because i haven't done everything i wanted , i want so many things so badly but will it matter when it is too late? you know how they say: it's never too late...well sometimes it is, if you're DEAD. and the major question that we need to ask ourselves is: have i done anything wrong to anybody? have i been unfair or bad to someone when they don't deserve it? because that really is an important question because if you're still alive you can at least attempt to fix the situation but if you're gone, there is nothing you can do about it, so say sorry while you can; say i love you while you can, say "how can i help you" while you can and never take anybody for granted for you never know when you're going to see them again.
I guess my point of writing all of this is: when you never know what is coming to you tomorrow why not take the best out of today and leave yesterday behind because that is where it is; a history...and leave tomorrow until it comes, plan like you're going to live forever, but live like you only have today.
ANGEL

Bare souls.

So, today's post is about life skills. the life skills that either you're born with or that you acquire through the years; i would love to do a whole series on the matter, and the first thing i would like to talk about is a life skill that is intriguing to me; and that always leaves dumbfounded to people that posses it; it is a life skill that is rather important but could lead you into hating the whole human race and that life skill is judging characters. the ability to see what's inside people without them saying a word about it and the ability to know the truth from lies, and the ability to be around people that you know their reality rather than what they tell you they are like. and like i said it is a bless and a curse in the same time because; people who have this skill are obliged to see people's souls naked, exposed, and the human soul is a dark place that nobody wants to see but these people who can read into others can see into their dirty souls, and that is not a pleasant thing to know or see.
Judging characters, i have never been so good at doing that, and for some reason i can't really see how people are on the inside, i always treat people and see them in the way they present their selves, and i look no further into their souls to know what they hide or how they actually are. this is like when someone tells you they are not hungry but you know they are and it is obvious that they are but you yourself can't really see it. how stupid is that?? well i don't really think of it as stupid as much as it is a born skill, some people are born with the ability to see beyond the cover that others put on their faces. i just can't figure out how people are like until I've been with them for so long while my friends can know the amount of information that took me a year or so to gather it takes them a talk with that person..seriously, just a talk.
to all of you out there who are good judges of characters : you are so lucky that you can see the insides of people's hearts so that you can be careful on who to be friends with, because, i think it's just good to be able to choose people to be around while knowing for sure that it was the right pick.
ANGEL

Be Your Own CLEOPATRA...

Cleopatra, a name that has stayed through the ages; a name that makes every woman proud to hear, a woman that ruled an empire of the most powerful ones in time alone, and had two of the strongest men in that time, wrapped around her finger. that woman is an example of what the female population is capable of. not with strength or trying to be an equal to men, but just by being herself, a woman, a female, with all her weakness that she embraced and worked with to get exactly what she wanted. and that is a subject that i really like and that i have been meaning to address as soon as i opened my blog and that is : girl power.
I see a lot of girls in my daily life( some of them are my friends) that get abused emotionally by guys.- a guy that is she totally out of his league, way better than him; i get so confused on how she accepts such behaviour from him, so i tend to ask and the answer is always one out of two: i love him so much, but that is not what blows my brains out the answer that confuses me is: he controls me...and here i beg to differ you see i believe in all my mind that girls can and do control boys and we do it with our most powerful weapon: our weakness. i know that u might say that this is BS you're saying and that boys are stronger therefore they control girls but i say that's the point, we girls as the weaker gender , god made our strength in that weakness, we can't snap necks, or punch a nose till it breaks, or break someones leg with a kick, but with one tear we can get whatever we want or with a puppy face we can convince any man to do what we want, and believe it or not, men are really vulnerable to tears, they get confused when they say a woman cry and they try to do anything just to get her to stop; so saying that he "controls" you is completely inaccurate because the truth is you control him you just don't know how to use it.i mean there are a lot of examples of women who concurred the world just by being a woman with all their flaws and weaknesses and my personal favourite is Cleopatra...
we don't need to become like men to control them, the truth is that we need to become more feminine than we already are; love our girlishness, our mood swings, our oestrogen; our hair, our curves, everything that allows us to be the perfect female that we can be; and if we can do that - and we can- every woman will be Cleopatra.

START LIVING

In addition to the fact that the world is getting smaller by the minute there is the fact of new things popping out, every where you look there is a new experience, a new person to meet, a new food to try, and so on and so forth. but if you are a scared, anti-social person like yours truly, you will find all that terrifying, and just to stay comfortable, you will stay in a protected shell, and never come out of it. i should know; because i go through that situation on daily bases, and i know a lot of people do too, I'm always afraid of trying new things, always doing the same old things i do every single day, which is something i don't understand because i get bored very easily, but some how i seem to repeat myself more than i would like to admit. i have panic attacks when i meet a large group of people, that i don't know, like in a wedding or a party; and i hate too much noise, i am like an old lady who's husband just died, and she is hating n everything and everybody. but i have learnt lately- from the lovely blogger Zoe-that i should just say YES, and be more bold in life, and just put myself out there to experiences, and that is what I'm trying to do.

 See the thing is, we are not really afraid of the new things,or trying them, because what you don't know can't hurt you, and what you have never tried before, you will not know how it's going to be until you do.what we really are afraind of is failing, and the look of others if that happened. but you know what: who cares what everybody thinks? if we didn't, no one will. so i started lately on this new project of mine and it is simple, it consists of doing ten things I'm not comfortable doing every day, ten small things, like keeping eye contact and smiling to a cute boy who was smiling at me, or going for a shopping day with your friends without worrying how you will look, or just buying something new to wear, that you would have never even picked out the rack before, and actually wear it. im not saying that we should break the boundries, and jump off a cliff, or rob a bank ( although that would be cool). but just these small controled adrenaline rushes will give you the power you need, that when in the future you want to make a big decision in life, you won't hesitate, and think it through too much, that you lose the opprtunity to do something great, like a job decision in a distant city; or anything else that the hesitation and the fear of stepping out of your comfort zone will ruin for you. we should start living rather than just existing. why should we be so afraid of life when all it takes is just to be a little brave, for the real danger  lies within our heads. stop existing and start living.

ANGEL